feeling blessed?
yeah...i was...
and now perhaps....

why i keep on lying to myself..
why i keep...cheering myself..
why do i keepp on choose to be the one who...keep all these
why do i act strong but yet not strong...in fact
why do i need to lie on my truely beloved people...
why??

u r not strong
u r not smart
u r loser
u r a fool
u r stupid

u just bluff urself..
wad do u ask to urself....
why do u need to askk urself when u try to find the answer or perhaps noe the answer...
why u do you act stupid to urself for keep on wondering for the answer...
r u just acting to be stupid...???

wad r u wishing for
its just a dream
its impossible
its just an empty hope and answer
u will not get it back...
once it lost it will hard to bring it back to u...

wad r u saying
its just air that come from ur mouth
its nothing

wad r u grumbling about
wad r u scared for
wad are those things that make u scared?
scared this and that
make urslef to be firm!!!lousy girl

who is this?
i dunno u...
u r just a shameless..
please go away from me!!!!

u even forget about a lot of things
where is ur motivation?
where is ur pride?
where is ur confindent?
where is ur strong behaviour?
where is ur free smile?
where is ur cheerful attitude?
where?
wad r u doing now?
wad r u emo for?

its ur fault to let go ur confidet,
independent
who ask u??
u can be strong last time

all those things that u promise to urself...
wad is it come out?
nothing
in the end its just a dissapointment..
a sin
every point that u mention to urself
its just goneee...
gonee......!!!!
its just gone by a slow wind that blowing it away....

u r just a damn stupid girl
why r u crying...
is this the only thing u can do??

u wan to be happy
everybody wan
u wan to be loved
everyone does

u just make urslef even more sad
more mistakes
wake up!!!
do i need to pour water to ur face so that u will wake up?!!!

u nvr think about ur parents?
wad will they feel!!!!
think!!!!!
SAY!!!!!
i tot these are the most important in ur life....
BLUFF!!!

wad do u get???
nothing...
will it make u satisfied?

u must get urslef backkk!!!
can not just sit there
wondering this and that

christmas is coming
u better...wake up!!!
pleaseee....
wake uppp....
i dunnnoo where u r ...my soul...my spirit...
I me MYSELF
i dunno where have u been hiding...
i just need u backk....


pleasee......~~~